Curiosity pricks my sides and demands to be noticed
as if the sands of time are displayed nearby, heckling me with every grain.
Instead of vibrating in a state of paralysis due to fear of one of these jabs,
I let them sink in.
Long gone are the days of potent feeling laced with doubt.
These passion-infused thorns are the seeds of change; the seeds of growth.
To fear them would be foolish.
I don’t always tend to have an answer when they appear, which is often,
But I always show them respect.
The lines I drew were never quite clear,
I always attempted to trace,
It wasn’t until I gave up hope
That I arrived in the right place.
See, I had tried so hard to replicate
All I had seen before
Unaware of how that idea shrunk me
And kept me from opening the right doors.
I stand before this corridor of passageways
Still unsure which one to choose,
However, I know not to follow another
For I have nothing to lose.
The value of the escape
has given my heart a breather
the sharp air lingers in my lungs
and encapsulates me in leisure.
Out here, there is nothing;
vast land and weathered rock.
My soul is free to wiggle,
my toothy smile non-stop.
An other-wordly experience,
of that I am sure,
and with it comes the knowledge
that I am built to endure.
Junipers bloom within my mind,
Spreading pollen-like thoughts to every region
To myself, I am eternally kind
I have made peace with the gnarly demons.
I hope you awake this morning
With a purer mind
and as for the intense, painful longing?
I hope it melts in time.
Soil, gravel, and sweat sits below my soles.
I know that I will not be swayed.
This is where I need to be.
This is where I shall stay.
(For Now)
I hear you murmuring
at the most unexpected of times
riddling my mind with humor
and assuring me that it’s fine.
I don’t get caught up anymore
I’m not lost on my own
I am learning day by day
through what I have been shown.
Thank you for your counsel
For the lessons and strain
I trust in this process
And won’t use what I’ve learned
In Vain.
Undress me in one breath,
Surround me in You,
We’ll both Unfold,
And forever take in the view.
Whispers between us
Out of this realm we step,
Engulfed in amorous connection,
A feeling we won’t soon forget.
Give it your all,
Fight til the death,
Neglect self-doubt,
It’s all just a test.
You’re more prepared than you believe,
Go out and attend,
Your heart will thank you
For the time that you spend.
Surrendering the day with a full heart,
I smile and rest my head,
I prepare myself for the next fresh start,
Also known as the day ahead.
My quarters are shrouded in black,
The light breeze caressing my skin,
I am grateful to look back
And appreciate what this day has been.
Goodnight to all my plans,
Goodnight to all my loves,
I take this time to shut my eyes
And gently give a shove;
I push away my doubts,
I thank my lucky stars,
“Your passion won’t soon run out
because you know who you are.”
Smooth out that crinkled-up breath,
Remind yourself why you are here.
This is the time to go all in,
This is your year.
Bloom. 